I am….a mess.
I am…a screw up.
I get it wrong too many times.
And yet You take me.
I am a hypocrite.
I saw acquaintances from my past, one had done me harm.
I ignored them, didn’t say hi. Then when they were gone, I spoke ill of them.
And I stand in front of others and “teach” about forgiveness.
I am a hypocrite…and yet You accept me.
I am broken.
I am damaged goods.
Yet You see me whole.
I am opinionated…loud…brash.
I speak out of turn…and often my words are not kind.
Yet You listen to me.
I am afraid…
I fear that some day everyone will see the wretch that I am
I fear that I will fail
I fear that I am not good enough.
I ignore Your words to cast my fears to You.
And yet You love me.
Broken, damaged, wretched…
…yet I am also saved, redeemed, perfected, loved, transformed.
Not by anything of my own…but through Jesus’ sacrifice and Your amazing grace.
For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person–though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die– but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation. (Romans 5:6-11 ESV)
Thank you, Lord
In Jesus name
(Originally sent as an email on 8/28/2014 – I’ve improved, with God’s help in some areas…in other areas, I still struggle.
Again, Lord – Thank You for loving me as you do)