Does God ever make you laugh? Not at Him, but at what He brings together…or does…or something along those lines? Maybe I’m odd, okay I know I’m odd, perhaps I’m one of the few that chuckle when God weaves things in a way that gets my attention. Anyway, to keep things short, this pausing thing I’ve been posting about (pause part 1 & pause part 2)…has had several of those types of moments. One of which being…
The bigness of God. In stopping to see Him in His glory…in nature, in people, in everything…I can’t help but be reminded of how big God is. But, even then, as He’s shown me in the last few weeks. My view of bigness is too small. That thought has hit me repeatedly…my view is too limited, too restrictive. I know I want (and need) a God I can’t fully explain…but yet in my day-to-day life, I still expect Him to work within my boundaries. Way too frequently I go back to a god I’ve created and not the Author of Creation, the Great I Am.
He knows this, of course, and has made sure His ‘bigness’ keeps coming up all around me. Posts I see, songs I hear, conversations, passages I read…not all may be directly related, but they poke, prod, and reinforce. Some may say it’s confirmation bias…and there is some truth to that since that’s what I’m thinking about it will be at the forefront of my thoughts and evaluations. But too much has “come out of nowhere” to be confirmation bias only.
Such as, someone asked me a question…which reminded me of a book I had – somewhere around stack three or four in my ‘to read stacks’ (I have an embarrassingly large number of books purchases waiting to be read). I pulled that book to flip through for research…there was another book directly on top of that one that caught my eye. “Not God Enough” by J. D. Greear…I don’t remember buying it. It was probably purchased because I enjoy Greear as an author, but it had been purchased and relegated to the middle of the pack as far as ‘to be read.’ The topic…how we like our God small…holding it there in my hand, I laughed…and started reading it as part of my “paused” time.
The more I pause, meditating on knowing He is God. The more I dwell on Psalm 100, Psalm 131, or other scripture. The more I strive to enter that rest and draw nearer to Him (Hebrews 4:11-16). I become more aware of His grandeur, His power, His greatness, His glory…His ‘bigness.’ I also realize even as I grow aware of those things…I still see Him way smaller than He is…but then if I could fully comprehend Him, He wouldn’t be God enough for the things I can’t understand.
“Because we have made Him small enough to be understood, He is no longer big enough to be worshipped.” – J. D. Greear
I need to open up the fences I keep God in…I need to be okay with the wildness of not being able to answer/know all there is to know about God. I need to abide, not explain. I need to allow for His bigness, not reduce Him down to some bite-size serving.
I want to be able to fully, honestly, and genuinely worship my God as the awesome, fear-inspiring, gracious, loving, huge, intimate God that He is…
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. [Isaiah 55:8-9 ESV]
Behold, these are but the outskirts of his ways, and how small a whisper do we hear of him! But the thunder of his power who can understand?” [Job 26:14 ESV]
Great is our Lord, and abundant in power; his understanding is beyond measure. [Psalm 147:5 ESV]
Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. [Luke 12:7 ESV]